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Sometimes I feel like I need to walk around spouting disclaimers every few sentences to let people know that I practically speak in sarcasm, that my written words are not always as well-thought-out as I'd like, and that if there are multiple ways to take something I've said/written, I really probably do mean the nicest of the options because if I'm going to bother to be mean, then I'm going to make you know it in no uncertain terms.

For as expansive as language can be, there are still never enough words for the things we think to *always* be interpreted correctly. And even managing to be understood *most* of the time is a heady accomplishment indeed.

But whether being accused of plagiarism you didn't commit (I got an email a few days ago with a C&D from someone running a site that hosted a story that was ripped from an old GW fic of mine which I proved by showing multiple places where my story existed online since more than a decade ago) or someone assuming that you are blindly attacking someone who they think has done nothing to you (regardless of the facts), words are just fucking frustrating sometimes.

It doesn't mean I mind someone confronting me if they think I am spouting off at the mouth like a twat because I do that sometimes, too. I have a bad tendency to leave off my filter as a method of dealing with people (it really does help me deal with crowds and new people and those things that my introversion makes uncomfortable) and that can lead to unintentional hurt feelings and people assuming that I'm out to get them and other such horrible nonsense. Though, yes, I have a tendency toward a boisterous ego, a slightly bad attitude and other not-so-flattering attributes.

Add in writing in general being frustrating and how I did *not* accomplish 13k on my Big Bang fic today because I was writing other things earlier, and then tonight has been about getting Damian to actually go to bed, and then running out for the diapers and milk and a handful of other things we were out of, and now it's only 12:30 and I am just dragging. As I stated before, I'm still a few thousand words to the good, and I can maybe make it up tomorrow anyway.

I want to say 'Fuck this day!', but in the grand scheme of things, it hasn't been all that bad, so we'll try again tomorrow.

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I love getting past the point of a fic that's giving you fits and back into the part this is just writing. To make up for my lousy word count on Big Bang fic yesterday (which I am about to start calling something ridiculous like Project Marmalade or Code Name: Coffee Cake), I was attempting to get to the introduction of the main conflict today. And, I did after a few hundred words, but then *that* part rolled along, so I am now at 14k and the main conflict has finally been introduced, so now I can start in on the part of the story that isn't as planned and just have fun with it. We're going to see where this all goes!

Though, I think I just had a brilliant idea and we'll see what happens with it. XDDDD

I'm feeling better and better about this story as I go along with it. It's currently longer than all but 8 pieces of fic that I have posted at AO3 and that's kind of amazing to me. If I finish this off properly, then I'll no longer be able to tell myself that I'm incapable to writing novel-length fiction. I also have a story here that I could very well rewrite as a piece of original fiction, so that's kind of cool. I probably won't, but it's nice to think that I *could*.